He Knows Me

Psalm 139: 1, 4 & 7-O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me—You know everything I am going to say before I say it, Lord—I can never escape from Your Spirit or get away from your presence.

It was late and I was driving home feeling very sorry for myself and I was having a wonderful pity party.  As I often do when I am alone, I talk to God.  Boy was I talking!  I had just had something happen that set my emotions on the edge of collapse and I was expressing my displeasure about the situation to the Lord.  My hands were gripping the steering wheel like Mario Andretti at the Indi 500. I had fifteen minutes to race around the tracks in my mind before I pulled into the driveway.  So I shot off as many words and made as many laps as I could in that fifteen minutes.

Most of my family know me but not like God does.  He knows everything about me.  He knows my anxious ways.  He created me and He knows what I am going to say before I say it.  On this day, He was still listening, even though He knew that I was going to have a meltdown.  God does not tune me out or run the other way when he hears me coming.  He is not laughing at my ranting, (I am sure that at some point in this one sided conversation He was smiling).  God knew exactly what I was thinking.  All of my insecurities and fears about this situation were under His control.  God knew that I needed to get it all out, cry out to Jesus, ask the tough questions and then wait for an answer.

God knows every day of my life, the past, the present and the future.  There is something very comforting in that fact.  God knows!  He knows when I am afraid to face my biggest fears and He will never leave me to do that by myself.  He knows when I just need to talk and He listens. Then when I am ready to hear from Him He whispers gently to my ear just what I need to hear.  His Holy Spirit gently nudges me to do what I need to do, or say what I need to say.  Sometimes those things require a great deal of strength and guess what?  He gives that abundantly.   In my weakness He gives strength.  When I ask for wisdom He give generously without reproach.  He does not look at me with the eyes of  human understanding but with eyes of the Master who created me.  Such love is amazing!

So whatever you are facing today, good or bad know that God cares about you.  In the words of the Psalmist.  “Lord, You created my inward parts…I am remarkably and wonderfully made.  Every day of my life is recorded in Your book and planned before a single one of them began….When I wake up I am still with You.  Know that God loves you and cares for you so deeply.  Enjoy living in His presence, run to Him with your greatest sorrow and share your greatest victories.  He wants to share all of those moments with you.